I Could Have Been

I could have been a boxer instead of a paper doll

I could have been the Rock that fell instead of the one you stood on

I could have rolled alone instead of with the punches you landed

I could have gone down in flames instead drowning

I could have danced instead of sleep walking

I could have stayed, I could have stayed

Instead I shadow boxed your demons
I rolled drowning in waves as my heart burned to ashes
and now you sleep

Salty blue veins of dreams
and for now you are close, 

The drawer shut, & sinking into my skin
where the bruises show on my knuckles, my chest

My ribs

Under my eyes
And where I keep taking it on the chin